I'd quite like someone right now.

I don't need anyone, but it might just be nice.

Okay so I haven't posted in a while.
I'm not really into this whole blog thing... I mean, I love reading them, but I'm no good at writing them. I don't know if it's that I'm not interesting enough, or not committed enough, or that there's no real point to the things that I write. Hm, ah well.

SUMMER = WONDERFUL.

Presentation Evening, Prom, Isle of Wight, Shopping, Theatre, Parties, London... :)

Presentation Eve: Got the History Cup - I don't think anyone can quite realise how happy that made me, I didn't think I'd stand a chance of getting it, but I did and I'm so over the moon. Every time I see it I just grin. I can't really talk about that though to other people, I worry that I'll look like a show off and a snob. It was actually embarrassing how many times I had to go up, everyone who doesn't really know me must hate me.

Prom: £4 dress. £11 shoes. £3 earrings. Borrowed bag. I did it on a budget! Everyone was really nice though, they said I looked good. I hope so :) I had a really nice time, everyone looked so stunning. Looking back at pictures though, I don't think I looked as nice as I first thought... my legs look fat! They're not, I know they're not, but next to a certain perfect looking girl's who also had on a rather short dress, they really look it. Hmm, oh well, it was a really good evening.

Isle of Wight: Stressful before hand, it wasn't really organised. It was fine though, we got there and it was great. Nice to spend time with the girls, swim in the sea, do nothing. Funny little quirks like 'rationed oranges'. Ah, it makes me laugh :)

Then the rest of the stuff, it's all good. Les Miserables: AMAZING. I want to be able to dance and act and sing like that, it's incredible. Parties were, hmmm, one was good, one wasn't. Oh well.

London was good. Gnome phrased it so well in her blog, she can really write. I can't. It was good. Pizza Express is yummy.

Um, yes. I read The Catcher in the Rye. It was great. I bought 4 Dickens books, I want to read them all and enjoy them and understand them and be intellectual. I've started playing guitar, I love it.

Hum. I'm no good at this. N'night.

Summer's heeeeeere.

Deary me, I'm incredibly bad at this blogging thing aren't I? I forget to creat new blogs, then even when I do they're incredibly boring. Oh well, they're only for my own amusement anyway :)

I'm in a strange mood today. Could have gone out with all my friends to watch the Englnad game but for some odd reason I didn't want to. Need some alone time I think, not that I'm grumpy or anything - actually quite the opposite, I'm very happy!

Good news though, I've rediscovered my passion for the clarinet! I started to despise it after my insane music teacher lost all of my coursework the day before it had to be sent off and so I had to go home, get the clarinet and re-record it all in one day. Gosh, that was stressful. Anyway, that was in April I think; I think it's time for Hawkins and the Clarinet to be friends again.

Talking of Music, it was my last GCSE exam on Friday! YAY YAY YAY. It was horrible and I don't think I did very well, but hopefully enough for an A which would make me incredibly happy. I keep having little thoughts about results day, which isn't for another 2 months. I'm a crazy perfectionist and it would make me so happy to get my results back and find nothing less than an A. I know that's ridiculous, but I have the potential to have acheived it, it's just whether the exams went well and I put enough work in. I'll just have to wait and see I suppose and enjoy my TWO MONTH SUMMER. Wahey!

What've I been up to? Oh yes, I went camping for a few days and it was lovely. I finally feel like I fit in properly with my group of friends now and it's such a wonderful feeling. We had a beautiful open fire going for the whole time and just relaxed. It was so nice knowing that I didn't have revision waiting for me when I got back.



I've made a mental list of some things I'd like to do over summer:
- read at least 10 classic books
- keep up the clarinet
- learn to love myself more
- get a tan
- relax
- tidy and therefore become generally more tidy

Ooh, prom soon too. Having slight worries at the shortness of my dress, but hopefully I'll look okay. Might try sticking it to my bum with double sided sticky tape. Haha.

finished.done.dusted.yay.

Right, THEY'RE FINISHED.

Exams, that is. Alllll done and dusted and now I am free to have a wonderful, amazing, fabulous summer. For two whole months.

It's a bit scary really, five years at school are going to come down to a piece of paper which I'll collect on the 24th of August. Wow. But, let's not worry about that - I have sooo much good stuff planned! :D

I'm off camping tomorrow for a few days with lots of friends and it's going to be WONDERFUL. Like, seriously, I am intending to have the best time and hopefully start to break down the slight 'uptight' stereotype into which I have fallen. Although, it's me I suppose, and those that I really care about love me for it!

I have a list of resolutions for the summer and in order to make them seem more worthwhile sticking to, I shall post them here:

- Read lots of books which will make me cleverer and more interesting
- Learn to love myself more
- Go out a lot more
- Become better friends with some in my friendship group
- Enjoy everything and stress a lot less
- Get a tan
- Play my clarinet again without hating it
- Learn to be tidy
- Ween myself away from facebook

There are probably more, but those are the ones that popped off the top of my head. :)

Ahhhh, this feeling is strange but great. I could so get used to this - it's much better having a list of things like that than one of work I need to do :)

Goodbye for now.

Inspirational beauty

Ah well, helloo.
After reading the most beautiful and honest blog ever (not that I've read that many, but still I'm convinced it must be one of the best), I feel inspired to post something, anything!

I'm feeling surprisingly happy at the moment and there really is a lot to appreciate in life! Be it the half an hour yesterday that I spent, listening to one of my best friends playing two beautiful pieces on the piano in order to add pressure to her audition on Sunday, chilling out at the lake watching butterflies and dragonflies or taking a nap at 5pm because I feel like it, I really am a pretty lucky person, and I don't think I take time to appreciate it often enough.

It's times like these that make me feel like a very special person. Sometimes, (two days ago for example) I get really upset that I'm not pretty enough to fit in with my group of friends, and that too much of the world revolves around appearances, so why am I not lovely to look at? But then again, maybe it actually makes other qualities you have all the more worth having! As a friend, I feel most of the things I do to try and help other people are really valued and that's much better than someone saying "oh, she's pretty." That's not to say, however, that some people can't be both beautiful inside and out, as I know so many people that are, but if I had to choose between one, I definitely know which one I'd rather be.

Right, before this gets boring to for the computer as noone else reads it, I shall stop :)

Oh, and just on the off chance that there's one looking - I love Gnomes.

Time may change me, but I can't change time

I was watching Shrek 2 today at about 12 o'clock (which by the way I think is a wonderfully lazy thing to do, it's very satisfying once in a while!) and one of the songs from the soundtrack speaks a lot of truth. "Time may change me, but I can't change time." This is proving extremely relevant at the moment as everything seems to be changing ridiculously quickly and entirely out of my control!

On the 18th of June, I will have finished my GCSEs, my five years at secondary school will be over forever and for the first time since I can remember, I will be entirely free to do as I please (at least for a couple of months). Although this seems like such a happy idea, it's very scary too.



I'm the kind of person that functions very well in a structured lifestyle, so being free is going to be a daunting prospect to begin with! It's not all bad though, being on half term at the moment, I have had a taste of this freedom and with the amazing friends that I have I know it's going to be a lot of fun.

What a confusing time, can't decide if I'm happy or sad that things are changing so much but I know that they have to so I guess it's just a matter of acceptance!

Let's share a moment of wooping for joy

Well, my frequent blogging didn't last long, did it!?
Oh well, to be quite honest, I got very grumpy after that last post and I don't like putting depressing things up - just doesn't seem productive really. Then, I got tonsillitis, so spent lots of time in bed and eating Heinz tomato soup with toast, which really is very very nice :)

Anyway, let's just say I'm feeling a lot better now. English Literature exam was today, and although it wasn't amazing, IT'S OVER! So let's just share a moment of wooping for joy shall we?

Okay, that's done. Chemistry exam tomorrow which is not so brilliant. I am writing this now rather than re-capping, which probably is not constructive, so I shall leave this post unfinished until my chemistry is over forever. Which, is not too long from now.

Goodbye (to all of the people that read this, which I think consists of, well, me!)
xxx

So far, so good

Well, I've successfully managed to keep up blogging for a grand total of, wait for it... two days now! How wonderful.

Now I'm feeling pretty grumpy right now, just received an email from my teacher telling me that, although I went in a whole hour early to do a past paper, she can't find it and 'would I mind doing it again?' Well quite frankly, the answer to that is yes of course I flipping mind doing it again, I was pretty happy with how it turned out and now that you've lost it I've lost the will to try it again! However, I'm sure when I see her tomorrow I'll smile and say "Oh, that's alright, yes I'll do it again if I can find the time."

Gargh, what is it with trying to please everyone all the time!?

Oh well, today hasn't been all bad. The sun has been shining and I've spent it with a wonderful friend baking a cake. I'm trying to keep the optimism levels up, exams and stress are getting me down rather too much I think.



So, happy thought for the day: No matter what decisions we make, everything will always turn out the way it's meant to be, so try to enjoy everything while it lasts!

I'm just going to keep thinking about going to Turkey in the summer where I'm able to see such beautiful sights as this.

Anyway, this probably isn't the best time to be blogging - I'm in a pretty foul mood haha. Oh well, I'll try again tomorrow, it's a new day and will hopefully be better!

With these empty building blocks I could make a thousand me's

Well, hello.
I've decided to make a blog as a bit of a distraction from the ridiculous amounts of revision that I should be doing for my upcoming GCSEs, because I've read lots of blogs and really enjoyed them and in a kind of strive to become a more interesting person.

If I'm honest, I don't really expect anyone to stumble across this and read it - and, if they do, I doubt that they'll be 'hooked' exactly.

So, just on the slight probability that anyone does read this, here's a little bit about me. I'm a sixteen year old girl living in Bristol. I would probably regard myself as a bit of a geek - I see most results below an A as a personal failure, which is bad, I know. I'm an only child (or as I like to put it, a 'lonely child'), and I live in a house which I absolutely adore with my parents and four cats. Yes, four cats, which is utterly ridiculous and I constantly find everything I own covered in cat hair, even though I don't allow them into my room.

I have a pretty fabulous group of friends, but I often find myself feeling like I don't quite live up to their standards. For a start, they are all gorgeous looking - some of them could quite easily be models and they're the kind of people that you'd love to hate, except they all seem to have perfect personalities as well. Goodness me! However, before this first post turns into a book, I'll stop about that and talk about it in a future post (if this blogging thing works out for me!)

Anyway, what else to explain - there's obviously quite a lot, but I'll leave that concealed for now. I'm in a 'must-find-something-to-do-other-than-revise-because-I-really-don't-want-to-but-know-that-I-should-because-if-I-don't-I'll-get-annoyed-at-myself' mood. Oh well, I think we can safely say what route I opted for.

Oh and finally, I think I should say the reason for the title of the post and the name of the blog. Name being 'Everyone knows best' and the title of the post being 'With these empty building blocks I would make a thousand me's'. Well, in short, I've been listening to Charlie Winston who a friend of mine told me about and I really like his music. There's a video on Youtube to his song I Love Your Smile and I would love to be Audrey Tatou riding around France on one of those beautiful looking bicycles right now!I also think they lyrics are beautiful and, unable to think of anything else, I copped out a little and thought I'd use them. Will try and be more imaginitave next time!

That's all for now! I shall try and be more interesting next time!