Summer's heeeeeere.

Deary me, I'm incredibly bad at this blogging thing aren't I? I forget to creat new blogs, then even when I do they're incredibly boring. Oh well, they're only for my own amusement anyway :)

I'm in a strange mood today. Could have gone out with all my friends to watch the Englnad game but for some odd reason I didn't want to. Need some alone time I think, not that I'm grumpy or anything - actually quite the opposite, I'm very happy!

Good news though, I've rediscovered my passion for the clarinet! I started to despise it after my insane music teacher lost all of my coursework the day before it had to be sent off and so I had to go home, get the clarinet and re-record it all in one day. Gosh, that was stressful. Anyway, that was in April I think; I think it's time for Hawkins and the Clarinet to be friends again.

Talking of Music, it was my last GCSE exam on Friday! YAY YAY YAY. It was horrible and I don't think I did very well, but hopefully enough for an A which would make me incredibly happy. I keep having little thoughts about results day, which isn't for another 2 months. I'm a crazy perfectionist and it would make me so happy to get my results back and find nothing less than an A. I know that's ridiculous, but I have the potential to have acheived it, it's just whether the exams went well and I put enough work in. I'll just have to wait and see I suppose and enjoy my TWO MONTH SUMMER. Wahey!

What've I been up to? Oh yes, I went camping for a few days and it was lovely. I finally feel like I fit in properly with my group of friends now and it's such a wonderful feeling. We had a beautiful open fire going for the whole time and just relaxed. It was so nice knowing that I didn't have revision waiting for me when I got back.



I've made a mental list of some things I'd like to do over summer:
- read at least 10 classic books
- keep up the clarinet
- learn to love myself more
- get a tan
- relax
- tidy and therefore become generally more tidy

Ooh, prom soon too. Having slight worries at the shortness of my dress, but hopefully I'll look okay. Might try sticking it to my bum with double sided sticky tape. Haha.

finished.done.dusted.yay.

Right, THEY'RE FINISHED.

Exams, that is. Alllll done and dusted and now I am free to have a wonderful, amazing, fabulous summer. For two whole months.

It's a bit scary really, five years at school are going to come down to a piece of paper which I'll collect on the 24th of August. Wow. But, let's not worry about that - I have sooo much good stuff planned! :D

I'm off camping tomorrow for a few days with lots of friends and it's going to be WONDERFUL. Like, seriously, I am intending to have the best time and hopefully start to break down the slight 'uptight' stereotype into which I have fallen. Although, it's me I suppose, and those that I really care about love me for it!

I have a list of resolutions for the summer and in order to make them seem more worthwhile sticking to, I shall post them here:

- Read lots of books which will make me cleverer and more interesting
- Learn to love myself more
- Go out a lot more
- Become better friends with some in my friendship group
- Enjoy everything and stress a lot less
- Get a tan
- Play my clarinet again without hating it
- Learn to be tidy
- Ween myself away from facebook

There are probably more, but those are the ones that popped off the top of my head. :)

Ahhhh, this feeling is strange but great. I could so get used to this - it's much better having a list of things like that than one of work I need to do :)

Goodbye for now.

Inspirational beauty

Ah well, helloo.
After reading the most beautiful and honest blog ever (not that I've read that many, but still I'm convinced it must be one of the best), I feel inspired to post something, anything!

I'm feeling surprisingly happy at the moment and there really is a lot to appreciate in life! Be it the half an hour yesterday that I spent, listening to one of my best friends playing two beautiful pieces on the piano in order to add pressure to her audition on Sunday, chilling out at the lake watching butterflies and dragonflies or taking a nap at 5pm because I feel like it, I really am a pretty lucky person, and I don't think I take time to appreciate it often enough.

It's times like these that make me feel like a very special person. Sometimes, (two days ago for example) I get really upset that I'm not pretty enough to fit in with my group of friends, and that too much of the world revolves around appearances, so why am I not lovely to look at? But then again, maybe it actually makes other qualities you have all the more worth having! As a friend, I feel most of the things I do to try and help other people are really valued and that's much better than someone saying "oh, she's pretty." That's not to say, however, that some people can't be both beautiful inside and out, as I know so many people that are, but if I had to choose between one, I definitely know which one I'd rather be.

Right, before this gets boring to for the computer as noone else reads it, I shall stop :)

Oh, and just on the off chance that there's one looking - I love Gnomes.